amberica | I feel like crying

I am not actually that emotional right now, but the hormones of my Moon make my eyes want to cry and my lips want to pout. It's weird. Like my body feels like crying, but my mind and emotions really don't.

As the wedding date gets closer, the plans are morphing slowly into shape. My parents are paying for the wedding and are now doing all the planning, which is a HUGE GIGANTIC load off my back. I hate that stuff, and they are real pros at it. For this to happen realistically, we would have to do the wedding in Fargo. This is not such a terrible thing. It's my hometown, which is supposed to be the traditional location for the wedding. It's also cheaper to do everything there. And my uncle, who works for the NDSU Alumni Foundation, can get one free usage of their beautiful center per year.

The Alumni Center is booked on September 30th, but it is WIDE OPEN the week before - September 23rd - which also happens to be the first day of autumn... not to mention the first full day of Rosh Hashanah and the first of Ramadan. Hah. So my dad actually already got us penciled in on that date for that location. I will probably confirm it once and for all this week.

I have a lot of relatives coming to the wedding - about 15-20 of them. I believe 7 of them are traveling over 3 hours from central North Dakota just to get to Fargo. I'd feel like a shit making them travel another 3-4 hours to get to the cities. Jon only has 6 relatives TOTAL coming to the wedding, 4 from the Twin Cities and 2 from St. Cloud, which is like an hour closer to Fargo. So there. It's totally fair doing this in Fargo, the "most central" location. I have more long-distance family. Not to mention, the hotels in Fargo cost less than hotels in the Cites, and while I am not paying for ANYONE'S hotel rooms, less people will be paying less money overall, which is good.

Jon is being a real trooper through all this. He isn't in love with going up to Fargo, but he is in love with me ;) and he is being totally open and willing to do whatever it takes just to get this thing over with! LOL - Besides, we will be LIVING in the Cities, and after this, we will only have to go to Fargo once or twice a year to visit my family for holidays or whatever. It's a small price to pay in the big scheme of things. And people travel for weddings ALL the time... it's no big deal.

I am actually really happy and confident and calm. My wedding is in great hands. But I still feel like crying. Damn periods.