Left Brain, Right Brain

School school school..... I NEED to go back to school. I like school. I like research. I like writing papers. I like doing presentations. If I had to be teaching undergrads during it all, I bet I'd like that too. Or else I'd find a way to tolerate it! I took a couple years off after high school because I knew I was not ready for college. I knew I would have skipped classes, not done the reading and work, and probably wasted away my student loan money on stupid crap. When I was 20, I was CRAVING education, so I went to college and excelled at it. I was ready. Once I got my degree, I partied for a while, went to NYC, came back, worked in my field which pays EXACTLY as bad as they say it does, worked in a few offices which paid a bit better (and offer benefits - w00t).... and now I am craving school again. I thrive in that world - the world of academia. I am happy, I am driven... I get stressed beyond belief and feel despair and hopelessness.... and then I suck it up and write the best paper I've ever done! It's exhilarating! Even the stress, I loved it. The pressure, I loved it. The grades, heck, how could I not love that! I worked my ASS off and really earned those grades. I got great feedback from my professors, and their respect, which I really treasure. I went against the normal - I did things in an unorthodox way, but I did it WELL, and was rewarded for it! How can you expect to make changes if you don't think outside the box?!

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