Thoughts on Paranoia
Jun. 23rd, 2004 09:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ambericaIt's a good thing I'M NOT a major pot head. Sometimes I feel far too paranoid anyway, and life would be simply intolerable if I was paranoid to that degree any more often than I already am.
Actually, I'm starting to realize that being paranoid is really a self-centered way to be. I mean, when I think about it, for someone to think that everyone else is constantly thinking about them, judging them, whatever... well, that's really unrealistically giving yourself a hell of a lot of credit. Most people have a lot of better things to do than think bad things about ME, or actively avoid me just because they find me so intolerable. I would think that if anyone really did think or feel anything bad about me, they would say it to me. Realistically, I can't be so important as to be an all-consuming thought in someone else's head at all times, especially bad thoughts. God knows I don't waste all my time thinking bad things about anyone else, or constantly judging any one person. That would be silly. Just like being paranoid is silly.
I should stop worrying so much about things... not that I'm worried right now, but in general. Because when I do let it happen, the unrealistic worries that I plague myself with are just useless, wasteful, and just basically self-destructive. I don't need to do that to myself.
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I wonder who it was that did a dance version of "Ordinary World" by Duran Duran? I love this song... And strange enough, I also really really liked that dance version sung by some girl. It was on one of the mix CDs that we used to play in the lobby when I worked at the theater... I'm going to look for that... find out who sang it... download it... and LISTEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
Am I obsessive in a bad way?
Actually, I'm starting to realize that being paranoid is really a self-centered way to be. I mean, when I think about it, for someone to think that everyone else is constantly thinking about them, judging them, whatever... well, that's really unrealistically giving yourself a hell of a lot of credit. Most people have a lot of better things to do than think bad things about ME, or actively avoid me just because they find me so intolerable. I would think that if anyone really did think or feel anything bad about me, they would say it to me. Realistically, I can't be so important as to be an all-consuming thought in someone else's head at all times, especially bad thoughts. God knows I don't waste all my time thinking bad things about anyone else, or constantly judging any one person. That would be silly. Just like being paranoid is silly.
I should stop worrying so much about things... not that I'm worried right now, but in general. Because when I do let it happen, the unrealistic worries that I plague myself with are just useless, wasteful, and just basically self-destructive. I don't need to do that to myself.
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I wonder who it was that did a dance version of "Ordinary World" by Duran Duran? I love this song... And strange enough, I also really really liked that dance version sung by some girl. It was on one of the mix CDs that we used to play in the lobby when I worked at the theater... I'm going to look for that... find out who sang it... download it... and LISTEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
Am I obsessive in a bad way?
